Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Nope. Not so sad.

Thought I would be, but checking in a few weeks later (well, posting about it), I'm not all that sad about the break-up. I'm actually feeling free and happy. Within 24 hours, I had realized the heft I had been carrying around was gone and just calm and freedom replaced it which are not burdens at all!
I think it is interesting that I am  not sad.
At therapy, I am relearning my wants and needs for a relationship. I learned very well to suppress those and to suppress feelings/frustrations/anger when people treat me poorly. Never again. I may not always put myself first, but I won't put myself second at my own detriment ever again.
I am so proud of myself for being strong and happy. I am happy again.

Influenster BlogStar!

I have been on Influenster for about a year and 7 months or so. I am a huge fan and have been from the get-go! Influenster is a great site and the #InfluensterApp is amazing! (I was voting for the app for such a long time - I am so excited it is finally here!!). Using #Influenster is easy. You join, write reviews of products, services, and companies and make friends! I love that I can connect to people on twitter or blogs through Influenster! It's awesome!
My favorite voxbox (Influenster's occasional reward for being a member) was the #InASnap #voxbox. I LOVE my Venus Razor and it is so perfect for traveling! I brought it on a bachelorette weekend recently and it was perfect. I still bring it on every trip I can (if I have to do carry-on bags, I can't obviously) and love it! The blade heads are even reasonable to replace (under 5$ a head at Target!)!

These are the links from my post about the In a Snap Voxbox:
In A Snap Pinterest board

Tuesday, November 11, 2014


I thought I would be more upset than I am. There honestly isn't too much different in my life even though I ended a long-term relationship (7 years). I was upset the first night and subsequent full day and driving home the second, but now it really is just whatever. We had slowly been seeing each other less and less and talking less and less, so the suddenness of the actual breakup isn't hugely different from what I was previously doing.
I am spending lots of time with brothers and that is awesome. I love my brothers and that I can be friends with them. It's good.
Right now, I don't care if I don't find someone else...I'd be cool with just being and doing me. Traveling and dancing and doing cool shit on my own.
Our society is not too supportive of singlehood though. I can't say how many people have said, "Oh, you'll be fine. You are amazing. I have no doubt you will find someone just as amazing as you are." But I don't need someone else to be complete and have a full life. I am good on my own with my brothers and awesome friends. I don't need a partner to be complete. It's cool if I find someone, but it's also cool if I don't.
Right now, I will focus my energy on meeting Childish Gambino (AKA Donald Glover) and then once he meets me, his focus will be on me. ;)

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Broken hearted

Unfortunately, I had to end my seven years and change relationship.
I have for a long time put aside myself and my happiness. I can't do that anymore and disappointingly, my ex and I don't have compatible goals and values. I wish we did because there is a lot of love and respect between us, but that can't account for incompatibility. So I ended it and I am putting myself first. No more sacrificial lamb.
I will get better and healthier and improve. And like he said, he will regret not choosing me.